Falling Skies

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"If that's what makes you happy, then I will be happy for you"

"Thanks my babe. Love you"

For God knows how long it was, I kept staring at those words.
I keep wincing, and I was out of breath.
The phone screen was rather too bright to be in the middle of darkness.
The pillow was soaked with all those tears rolling.
Seriously what the heck.

A second ago it was a sincere thought, wanting him to really be happy.
Even at a cost of destruction.
He deserves it, he's a really good man. The best I've known.

And me, who had only been receiving all the love that he gave,
at least I could just approve this.
Not for me, but for his sake.

But what's with this hesitation?

Something is wrong.
The whole situation is.

Aurora

I have always dreams of going up north pole or south pole. For Aurora.

First basic. Say it right. Its Awwww - Rawwrrr - Raaaaa

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I'll try to explain (to myself basically) in normal people conversation instead of scientific-I-don't understand-a-thing.

Who / What

Aurora: 

- From Latin word

- Meaning: sunrise or Roman goddess of dawn.

- North Pole: known as Aurora Borealis

  South Pole: known as Aurora Australis

- Also known as Dancing Lights

How

Mr.Science: 
Occur when highly charged electrons from the solar wind interact with elements in the earth's atmosphere (magnetosphere).

Ms.Normal: 

Sir Solar and Madam Magnet keep attracted to each other. They keep colliding and dancing.

Mr.Science:
There are few layers of atmosphere. The electrons will encounter atoms of oxygen and nitrogen at altitudes from 20 to 200 miles above the earths surface. The color of the aurora depends on which atoms is struck, and the altitude of the meeting.

Ms.Normal:

As the relationship goes deeper, they produce babies of different colors. 

* Green - oxygen, up to 150 miles in altitude

* Red - oxygen, above 150 miles in altitude

* Blue - nitrogen, up to 60 miles in altitude

* Purple/violet - nitrogen, above 60 miles in altitude

So basically its the relationship that sparks beautifully. Such a magical ending.

When

- During the night. Since the light can't beat the sun lit.

- Best view during winter, as it has long period of darkness and frequency of clear nights.

- Best time to catch the Aurora - during local midnight.

Where

Northern lights - Norway, New Orleans, Canada, Yukon, Alaska, Greenland, Iceland.

Southern lights - Not often seen as they are concentrated in a ring around Antarctica and the southern Indian Ocean

* often occurs near the magnetic poles

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Enough babbling. So how beautiful it is? Let me show yahh!

Source: Wikipedia Images

Well, for your information dude, apparently it occur in another planets too. How cool is that?

Source: Wikipedia Images

I'd wait on that ice field for the wholeee night. 

No boy, I ain't close there eyeballs till the lights come dancing magically.

Okay so now let figure how to get myself to that magnetic pole. 

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Dear Aurora, someday I will. 

Don't stop dancing until my eyes lay on you.

Information and Images sources: Wikipedia

The Friend

When I first met her, I think she's a bit gothic. With that hair and black bands at her wrist, and yeah, an obvious "emo" look on her face, I really have no idea if I should say Hi! or Wassap Yo!. Quite a confusion back then, so I ended up ignoring.

She's a roommate to one of my best friend. And that's all I know about her until a few years later.

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I was looking for a house to rent for the next trimester, so off I went to this two-storey house with a friend. And there she was, living in the same house.

We didn't clicked right away, but a few days after, that night we were talking in her room like we've known each other for so long. Perhaps our Terengganu-ian blood is the reason for the first chemistry. But she's good, in holding a good conversation.

Since then, we are inseparable.

For two years, I will buy her nasi lemak right after she wake up because I know by the time she get ready which is hours later, all the food will be gone and it's already time for dinner.

We don't do clubbing, but we did a lot of late nights.
Eating McDonald from midnight till 3am, then I'll drive her car at 180 reaching Melaka before 4am.
Belting Mariah Carey's songs at karaoke Jetty for 5 hours non stop (because its cheaper).
Barbecues by the road, barbecues by the sea.
Played pool in the midst of thick smoke of nicotine.
Road trip to island. Road trip to beaches.
Be the third person (or bodyguard) in her attempt of flings.
Practice Salsa-size in the middle of living room (new way of exercise).
Endless nights of chatting in bedroom, talking about boyfriend, talking about moms,
talking about hopes and dreams.

I swear she will drive everyone crazy when it comes to getting ready. Or anything regarding time.
But I swear she'll be a great company, with her contagious laughter and jokes.

Never have I seen her in mood swings or blasting anger like nobody's business.
One hell of a stubborn woman, but with a firm stand. You earn my respect in that girl.

One thing about the friendship is, we're never the type of hugger.
"Oh my God babe, give me the tightest hug I miss you beautiful"
Fake.
"What the hell is "diet"? McD is delishh. I'm gonna have the fries and you're gonna watch me eating"
That sounds like us.
But we do compliment each other. At times when we're sure we don't look like lemons.

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Half decade later, we all have started working. I guess I didn't get to see her much, due to demanding job that require my weekend taken. I didn't even realize that time flies so fast that we both have aged before we got the time to meet up.

One day she says in small laughter,
"When was the last time we had movie together? 2 years ago? I'm losing you"

And that was a stunner.

Thank you for being a beautiful friend, Shereen.
I'm thankful for you.

Lastly

Last writing for 2012,

I wish I had more time.
I wish I had more control.
I wish I had said and do
many things that I couldn't.

Above everything else,
I wish I'm not wishing.

The Bucket List 1

Halfway to 30s and I've never been to even a quarter from the world map yet. Sigh, pathetic woman.

Tragedi bulan Oktober

Some are lucky dudes who are sponsored by lovely parents, some are just penniless who could only afford to pay gas to travel from home to the city.

Itupun dah sangap gila

God's land is so vast that no mere human could possibly quit discovering something new. Today someone might just discover, "Oh dude I found a small island shaped like a tortoise". And tomorrow someone else will go, "God can you believe this? The second Mariana Trench was found!". It is possible.

If anyone would ask me where I world like to go, I'd consider these two points; history and nature. Definitely wouldn't go to another big city, what's the whole main point of travelling when you see the same rock jungle right. Swear I would slap myself.

Nothing could beat the beautifully crafted nature, it will make your jaw drop that the heart would stop for a second to embrace such beauty. The appreciation would result to a realization, reminding me how small I am in this God's land.

Historical buildings amaze me nonetheless. They have quite a story there don't you think, despite the fancy architecture  It stood strong for hundred years, some even for thousand years; to comprehend how the past look like. To tell us why and how it happened and to visualize to us how the civilization actually developed. Visiting these places is like commuting in time capsule, which I simply love.

Figured it would be good to make a compilation, who know's if one day I could actually make it?

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The Bucket List 1:

Aurora Borealis, Norway

Machu Picchu, Peru

Neuschwanstein Castle, Germany

Grand Canyon, Arizona

Petra, Jordan

Iguazu Falls, Argentina 

Source: Google Images

And of course the list does not stop here. To be continued...


Penabungan bermula.

Good 'Ol Times

Celebrated a good friend's convocation some time ago, reminded me of the good times I used to have. Boy, can someone invent the time machine already?

Trust me when you finally start working; with that super long working hours, endless tasks, the pressure of achieving the expectations, yeah add up with the scolds from the bosses, life is not that pretty until your paycheck day to remind you why you're doing what you're doing.

Hari Isnin maki, Selasa marah, Rabu jadi singa, Khamis sudah gila.

At that moment, the only thing you miss the most are your uni years! For one simple reason, the care-free life. Where there are no worries, no obligations, just you worrying over exams and to whom you should throw your laundry to. Plus surrounded by friends that are very much like your family makes life even more beautiful.

Masalah harian cuma fikir nak isi perut dan isi otak.

My pieces are scattered everywhere, since I have always believe in "now or never" thingy. Haha. Sigh,the naivety. I love futsal and dancing, despite I'm not any good in any of it (they said I run like a goose, daymn you). But indeed I did, learnt as much as I could to laugh and cry along the journey.

Perasan lembut gemalai, tapi kayu. Perasan bawak bola,tapi lari berkepak macam angsa. Haha.

After more than a year, feel like walking down the memory lane again;

Irreplaceable moments captured in vivid memories is the best part. With The O.C style dude, can you beat that? Haha.

Inilah hasil apabila menilik gambar lama sambil mendengar lagu sayu dimalam buta.






Photos were taken by an awesome friend cum photographer. Check him out at http://www.reezphotoworks.com/

Great BLue Hole of Belize

I am mid 20s and I have never swim. *I know, what a shame*

I only know how to "dive"...or so I called...blup blup myself like a frog in that blue water until I run out of oxygen in my lungs. And I only dare to get into that water if I know how deep it is, where my foot could touch the ground and I could still stuck my head out for some air. *I know, what a coward*

Saya seekor katak yang berjaya

And when I accidentally found this on Google somewhere, I already imagine how my grave will look like in hundred meters under stalagmite and stalactite, if I ever thought of becoming "adventurous" someday.

It's not about the depth, it's a freaking...trap!

Meet the Great Blue Hole of Belize.

Source: Google Images

Can you see how dark that hole is!!! It's so deep it's not even in pretty blue color anymore. Oh God, I could pee in my pants *faint*

It's recognized as the world's largest hole underwater and it's 146m deep yaw. Roughly at 300m across, it seems like it's the hot stuff among the divers, the 'fear factor'. 

The Blue Hole lies near the center of Lighthouse Reef, a small atoll 70 km from the mainland and Belize City. And of course, it is part of the larger Belize Barrier Reef Reserve System, a World Heritage Site of the UNESCO.

Apparently this hole is actually a cave...the sunken cave. It was formed during several episode of Quaternary glaciation when sea levels were much lower. As the ocean began to rise again, the caves were flooded. 

Here's the less scary image:

Source: Google Images

Guess who found it first? Mr. Jacques-Yves Cousteau! Bravo bravo. In 1971, he brought his ship, the Calypso and his 1-man submarines to the hole to chart its depths and examine stalactites suspended from overhanging walls.

Of course people don't just dive there to see the fish, they want to document the cave system. Journey of discovery with all new friends, the sharks family! You'll meet Mr.Hammerheads, Mrs.Carribbean Reef Shark, Jr.Black Tip Shark, and Ms.Bull Shark. How lovely, all the carnivores. 

Now here's the not-so-pretty image:

Source: Google Images

Since the divers, which are the normal human beings, they couldn't possibly just go 400ft below to reach the ground. The deeper areas inside the Blue Hole don't have the profusion of life associated with most drop-offs as a result of poorly circulating waters and little light. 

Which means, it's freaking dark that if you fall down there, no one could possibly find you. 

"Save mee...blup blup...save mee...blup blup...s.a.v.e..m.e....-give up and dead-". 

Oh.my.God. *horror face*

I am no kidding dude. 

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As extracted from this blog; http://www.lifeinthefastlane.ca/legendary-great-blue-hole-of-belize/offbeat-news

The deeper one dives into the Blue Hole, the clearer the water and the more breathtaking the scenery, as the array of bizarre stalactites and limestone formations which mold its walls become more complex and intense.

On the western side at a depth of 230 feet (70 meters), there is an entrance through a narrow tunnel into a large cavern. In total darkness the stalactites, stalagmites and columns exist in an undisturbed world.

The floor is covered with very fine silt which billows into great clouds with the slightest movement from a passing diver. In the farthest corner, another narrow tunnel leads upwards into a 2nd cavern and another leads to a 3rd cavern where the skeletal remains of turtles which found their way in, never made their way out.

Some of the tunnels are thought to be linked right through to the mainland, though it has never been conclusively proven. The mainland also has many water-filled sinkholes which are connected to caves and tunnels.

2-foot long cores revealed outstanding sedimentary laminations during a study by Robert F. Dill and divers from the Cambrian Foundation in 1997. There is no oxygen near the bottom, and hydrogen sulfide prevents bottom dwellers from burrowing and disturbing the sediment.

Preliminary analyses of the short cores showed fluctuating pollen, spores, mercury, and arsenic levels ranging from 15 and 21 ppm (parts per million). Other events recorded in the short cores included hurricane or large storm layers. The storm layers are light-colored and beautifully laminated.

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Must be an exciting journey. You've gotta be an excellent diver with multiple experiences under your belt first, to overcome any situation to help yourself down there.

Mapuh kerah la weh.

In my dreams of course. Haha