Monday, November 14, 2011

#12

Remind me how and why did I breathed again,
For all I know there was only pain.


        Until that day I remember I actually smiled,
        Because for me,that man just walked a mile.

Thursday, October 20, 2011

Anak Singa

I guess the judgement is on me, since the promise on frequent posts was literally shattered.

LAZY BUM.


Maybe I could adopt a more innovative method, blog-sleep. Typing with your eyes close while the fingers dancing on the keyboard. Oh wait, I've done that. This post is the proof. 10 times of rewriting since laptop ended up being my bolster each night. Sigh


Could have come up with better excuses like I'm too tired to write after 10 hours working,etc. But I was just too busy babysitting anak singa.

Boy, did she made me run wild.

.   .   .   .

Meet Anak Singa of the house. 


Don't be fooled by that big sparkling eyes that screams "I am just too innocent". That's purely illusion. Pfft. She has ruled this home like a queen for barely two years, pinching everyone's noses to satisfy her demands.

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She has found her true passion and perhaps an ambition too, Handbag Digger.




She'll dig into it and carefully inspect each item. Then she'll carry that bag the way Paris Hilton did. No idea where did she picked up that interest.

No, certainly not from me. 


*looking at my dozens of handbags innocently*

I know we're sisters the moment you beautifully carry that handbag. So proud of you Ma-Ya. For this behavior, I certainly approve. Haha *clap clap*



*Anak Singa-cub

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

#11

Melihat dirinya yang hampir sempurna,
Terlihatkan diri yang serba tiada.


     Bedanya aku dengan bidadari dunia
     Bak langit indah dengan tanah yang rata.

Saturday, September 17, 2011

Time is Enemy

Barely 3 months away from new year. And exactly what have I done throughout these time?

Nothing.

How inspiring. Dude work something out!

Well let me try to:
1. Write more often. Daily if possible. Erkk okay once in two days. 
2. Learn more recipes. Lord please send Nigella to help me. 
3. Dig in into those needles. Gotta have this.

Be my judge. I WILL MAKE IT HAPPEN.






Thursday, September 15, 2011

Losing August

August was not an easy month.

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Namanya Minah.

Ibu kepada empat idola, isteri kepada hero sanjungan.

Minatnya tak pernah padam untuk menjahit baju kurung si kecil setiap kali Raya menjelang. Satu rumah dihias dengan hasil tangan jahitan menggunakan mesin jahit zaman Jepun yang macam kayuh basikal. Bila dimakan usia, mata yang rabun tak mampu lagi mencucuk benang dalam jarum halus yang boleh kasi juling. Namun pabila si kecil dulu yang kini sudah besar 'passing' baju kurung lama jahitannya kepada si kecil yang baru, senyumannya cukup lebar melihatkan.

Tenaga empat kerat yang tinggal dialih kepada bercucuk tanam ubi keledek di tanah belakang rumah. Dapat ubi keledek gemuk debok, mula semangat tanam cili, sayuran, pendek kata dah tak payah pergi pasar. Hari hari nya diisi dengan menjaga keperluan tumbesaran tumbuhan tumbuhan yang ditanam.Tanya khabar si ubi sihat ker tidak lagi penting dari bertanya khabar dirinya. Senyumnya cukup lebar menceritakan.

Kari daging adalah masakan kegemarannya yang dinanti semua menjelang Raya, bersama ketupat palas yang dianyam sendiri. Air kopi hitam pekat cap Kapal diajar minum olehnya taktala umurku baru kenal Cornflakes itu adalah bijirin sihat. Starbucks tak mungkin dapat membandingi kewangian kopinya walaupun manis sampai sakit gigi. Melihat anak anak berkumpul menjamah juadah sama untuk meraikan perayaan sama setiap tahun, senyumannya cukup lebar menyediakan.

Rumah papan nya tempat kegemaran si kecil untuk berlari. Bila semua sebulat suara berlari kesana sini tidak tentu arah kononnya main polis sentri, sikit lagi nak runtuh rumah binaan suaminya. Lantang suara menghalang, kerana pada waktu yang sama cerita kegemaran Rosalinda sedang ditayangkan. Tak faham sepatah bahasa Sepanyol, disuruh suaminya terjemahkan. Tak konfiden dengan suami, disuruh si kecil menjelaskan kenapa si Rosalinda itu menangis. Masih tak faham, tapi senyumnya cukup lebar cuba memahami.

Raya kali ini si kecil yang kini sudah besar itu berangan nak menjahit. Fikirku mungkin ini minat yang disambung darinya. Sanggup nak bertarung dengan jarum halus untuk menyiapkan manik dalam kereta yang dipandu melebihi had laju. Sanggupku lagi kerana kepulanganku kali ini, untuk melihat senyumannya yang setia menanti.

Separuh perjalanan pulang ke rumah papan nya, separuh nafasku hampir hilang.
Kata Abah senyuman itu sudah tiada lagi, dia hanya menanti doa kami.

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Sekujur tubuh tak bernyawa menyambut kepulangan kali ini.

Ciuman tangan diganti dengan ciuman di dahi buat kali terakhir.
   Belaian dan pelukan diganti dengan si cucu memandikan jenazahnya.
       Cerita khabarnya diganti dengan surah Yassin dan doa dari insan yang ditinggalkan.

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Namanya Minah. 
Tokwan kepada si kecil yang kini sudah besar. 

Al-Fatihah.



Saturday, July 23, 2011

Servicing People

"Kau orang tak buat kerja ka? Why on earth do I still haven't got my freaking statement!!?"


"Why is it here so slow? Other place is so much faster."


"I don't care how you do it,I want it right now! I have a lot of money you know,you can check"

. . . .

How would you like to deal with misery for almost everyday? Plus if you're lucky enough you'll get a high frequency voice screaming at your ears. Every.day.

And yet you are to abide the rules by giving these people a sweet smile and a sweet voice to calm those climbing nerves. 

Walaupun rasa nak tendang jauh jauh


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This is customer service. And I have worked in this industry for a half decade. Customers from Food and Beverage industry to Banking industry. I have met all the angels and devils, well almost.

Let me tell you the real fact. I think I have lost half of my sanity, 5x chances of heart attack, 5 wrinkles under my eyes and 5 fine lines on my forehead.

Tambah lagi 5 tahun cepat mati

Your patience will be tested to the maximum, with some major learning in anger management. Imagine one minute you were having such a good conversation with one good person, and the next thing you know there is some maniac ready to cut your head off.

Well another fact is that you are paid to deal with variance of emotions, by sticking to the common ground rules of customer service.

Rule 1: "Customer is always right"
if customer is wrong;
Rule 2: "Customer is still and will always be right"


Yeah, try to have that upset mouth watering your face with the smelly saliva and bugging your brain with the ridiculous complaints while sticking to that rule. It ain't easy dude, it ain't easy.

Jantung confirm bergerak laju macam masuk marathon mengenangkan betapa bengong manusia ni


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Being a consumer myself, I know I am one particular customer. But when things are not rightfully done, ask properly. Customer service is just a stop-center for queries and complaints. Their job is to receive and accept every fault being put on their shoulder for other people's mistakes. Just because you have the right to defend your rights, that doesn't mean you may disrespect others. By being nice and say thank you,that surely will light up their day.


Image from www.offthemark.com



Friday, July 22, 2011

#10

Kekuatan
bukan berpajak pada tubuh yang sasa,
bukan lahir dari kata yang dusta,
bukan hasil dari ego yang terbina. 


Mampu mu kerana berpijak pada yang nyata
tunduknya kita hanya pada Yang Maha Kuasa.



Saturday, July 16, 2011

Aspiration

I figured I wanted an exquisite Monday few weeks ago. So I opted to have a brainstorming evening with the First Man.


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An evening with the Prime Minister, in collaboration with Young Corporate Malaysians (YCM).




Since the main highlights (well as you can see in the pictures), the night was all about economy. I just had to do some checking with my brain if it could recall the word of macro and micro economics. Please-lah, the least I could do was to look least like a lost bimbo.There were like a thousand of young knowledgeable lads for God sake! 

If it happens to be a person asking me,"So you think we could reverse the CPI and inflation index by implementing some relevant fiscal policy?"

"Hmm, it's certainly not impossible, let me get back to you on that". 
Halimunan-kan diri sendiri disebalik pasu pokok




There he was, the current First Man of Malaysia; Najib. Originally the idea was for him to elaborate and answering questions regarding the Economic Transformation Programme (ETP) and New Economic Model (NEM). I was expecting a very technical lecture; analyzing GDP and GNI towards achieving the targeted annual growth, why domestic investment was crushed since 1997 crisis, how the NEM or ETP could create a surplus in our economy, bla bla bla. Seriously I thought it's going to be a serious one I even cursed myself for forgetting my calculator.

But to my surprise, it was not an economically night at all. In fact there were lots of sense of humor and laughter. His speech was short and sweet, followed by numerous questions by the eager young adults.




Uh-uh, they're certainly eager. Each corner was full house with their curious minds and Najib tried to provide the best solutions for their concerns. It was certainly a refreshing sight to see, and was certainly intimidated by how the Gen Y audiences were really participating. 

Among the questions being raised and the solutions given:
1) Imported cars price to be deducted: Give me some ideas on how to get the revenue,then we can do this.
2) The next general election date. I am clueless myself.
3) Below 40 years old to be a Parliament members. Haha, will be considering that. 
4) Standardization of schools to promote unity (SRK,SJKC,etc) We have Sekolah Wawasan to achieve that purpose

and bla bla bla, many more. 

.  .  .  .

My presence there was truly for exposure purpose, and mostly for the fact that the targeted audiences was meant for young adults. Below 30 only dudes, Uncles and Aunties please give us chance-lah. I mean, which talk on economy that will draw such attention from people like us? 

Well apart from having a brilliant night, the only thing I wanted after I left the building was just a freaking good night sleep. Zzzzzzzz.


Monday, June 20, 2011

#9

Niat dihati ingin saling menasihati, 
      Namun kejahilan sering membutuhkan diri.


Malu pada insan kerna tak sempurna, 
      Malu pada-Mu wahai Pencipta.

Monday, June 6, 2011

Knowing You

Ever wonder why some people just don't get you even though you speak the same language?

Yeah dude, wa mintak karipap dia kasi wa kuih lepat

.  .  .  .

Dr.William Moulton Marston, an American psychologist, feminist theorist, inventor, and comic book writer who created the character Wonder Woman, developed the DiSC model in 1928.

His interest was in understanding and describing how people felt, behaved, and interacted with the world around them, rather than outlining core personality traits which was the focus of most of the other personality assessment models. 

The DiSC model is based on how people behave on 2 dimensions. 
                         Task-Oriented vs. People-Oriented

Depending on where we are on these 2 dimensions, our behavioral tendencies can be described as one or more of the following types:
                       Dominant
                       Influencer
                       Steady
                       Compliance
.   .   .   .

Macam mana nak bilang?

1. Choose which personality suit you best. 
     Task-Oriented   : Work first, people second 
     People-oriented : People first, work second

2. Then pair the above choice with second adjective. 
    Are you...  Reserved or Outgoing

3. Now check yourself out according to this diagram. 
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If you are:

DOMINANT (Task Oriented+Outgoing)                  
- Direct, Decisive                                                        Cons:
- High ego strength                                                      - Oversteps authority, 
- Problem solver                                                            Argumentative Attitude
- Risk taker, Self-Starter                                                Dislikes routines,
- Innovative                                                                   Attempts too much at once
- Places high value on time                                             
a.k.a Paling gila kuasa

INFLUENCER (People Oriented+Outgoing)
- Enthusiastic                                                              Cons:
- Trusting, Optimistic                                                  - More concerned with popularity,
- Persuasive, Talkative                                                  Inattentive to detail, 
- Impulsive, Emotional                                                  Overly Animated,
- Great encourager                                                       Talks more than listen
- Positive sense of humor
a.k.a Mak rasa mak Diva la nyah

COMPLIANT (Task Oriented+Outgoing)
- Accurate, Analytical                                                 Cons:
- Consciencetious, Careful                                          - Needs clear cut boundaries for action, 
- Fact-finder, Precise                                                    Bound by procedures and methods
- High standardsm Systematic                                       Prefers not to verbalize feelings
- The anchor of reality                                                  Gets bogged down with details
- Defines situations, Tests information
a.k.a Might produce a book "How to follow rules for Dummies"

STEADY (People Oriented+Reserved)
- Good listener, Team player                                      Cons:
- Possessive                                                               - Resists change,
- Understanding, Friendly                                              Gives in too easily
- Reliable, Dependable                                                  Holds grudges
- Patient, Empathetic                                                     Difficulty establishing priorities
- Loyal, Compliant towards authority
a.k.a Juruh sungguh la


Image from Google Images


The differences teaches us to harmonize and value each other. Imagine a world of clones? Bo-ring.
This is your dominant personality. How about meeting your Alter-Ego? 

Itu cerita kita bilang lain hari.


Thursday, June 2, 2011

#8

Grab a coffee drive on a long highway,
Grab a friend walk on a sunny day,
Grab a lover and slowly thee sway,
Grab a life, and make it stay.

Friday, May 20, 2011

To Be Here

Nothing fears an employed person more when surrounded by many uncertainties.

Bagaikan berpaut pada dahan yang rapuh

In the midst of the marriage of two companies; the only thing that matter to the employee is not just the disposable income, their concern is more on the security. Especially if the other party is the denominator, the grass is definitely greener on the other side.

You could just walk into the office and find a termination letter on your desk,just like that. Imagine if you have a wife and 4 kids to care for?

Waking up each day to grey skies is definitely going to cost your peace of mind. Each faces are written with those familiar lines, "Will I still be here tomorrow?"

Well, will I be here?

Kerutan dahi bertambah 6 lapis

Miskin-aire

Say hello to poverty.

With the price of crude oil keep hiking up, we are nowhere near to achieve the status of high-income society. Every industry will be affected for one simple reason, transportation cost. And we as the consumer will have to bear that cost with every penny.

Tak mustahil jika harga ubi keledek sama dengan Cheesy Wedges


In addition to that matter, money value is constantly depreciating. Which equivalent to the loss of purchasing power.

Duit mahal + Harga barang mahal = Papa kedana


We will be too busy feeding our four-tyres friend than our own stomach. I think I could already foresee my future in 10 years time:

My kid  : Mama, what's for lunch?
Me        : Timun batang and bayam
My kid  : And what's for dinner?
Me        : Petai and kangkung
My kid  : I want meat!
Me        : Chickens mahal. Burung gagak mau?

Millions of subsidies will be saved. Whatever MRT plans you have in mind Sir Govt, do execute.

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

#7

Rebahku hanya di sejadah-Mu,
Pujaku hanya pada Yang Satu,
Pohonku pada-Mu Ya Tuhanku
    Jangan ditarik walau secebis Iman milikku.

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

What's Cookin' ?

Imagine your house lights asking you,
"Hey,you left us on. Since no one is at home, can we turn ourselves off?"

You might drop your jaw on the ground.

I know I would. I mean come on,how cool it is knowing that there's an interaction between you and your lamps right?

Bunyi agak gila cakap dengan tiang lampu, tapi mari kita menjadi optimis
.  .  .  . 
Sweden is known as the most innovative country in EU. Clearly I have no doubt on that, since people keep storming into IKEA store just to buy a freaking Grandpa's chair which you can get it somewhere else. Practicality and simplicity, thats why. And yes, the meatballs, Daim cakes, caramel, chicken wings, biscuits, currypuff....right I better stop myself. See how Sweden tackled us even with food!

Kau bukan nak cerita pasal karipap disini


Not to forget the contribution of Ericsson to our telecommunication industry. Right, I babbled so much I've forgotten my purpose. The highlight here is that the innovation of Sweden who are best known for being such a super-environmentalist, has invented another system which still applies their famous simple-yet-practical principle.

Introducing their latest brainchild, The Social Web of Things (TSWOT)a brilliant device that allow the systems to communicate with each other. Strictly no human, this is their own social network.


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  Ericsson research engineer Marcus Gardman showcasing The Social Web Of Things
Image by TheStar.com.my


Mind you that this will be something like:

Television: Yaw Ms.Fanny, please stop swirling around. You're driving me nuts.
Fan         : Mr.Tivi, apparently thats my job. You should shut yourself up, you're sucking more kilowatt.
Television: I'm entertaining. And you're certainly not.
Fan         : bla bla bla bla
*Pardon me, this is only my wild imagination

The technology has growing so rapidly that even your gadget will have their own cliques, to monitor their own  functions and purposes. You just have to say "Yes" or "No", acting like one big boss to the heartless machines.

Right now, TSWOT is still in conceptual stage. I just can't wait to get home and ask my microwave, "What's cookin yaw'? ".




*Original story from The Star, 3rd May 2011

Sunday, May 1, 2011

You mean the Bumi to me.

A super girlfriend asked me:
"Are you actually happy?"
Stupefied by the random question.
".....Yes I am. Of course lah!"
".....But was that even a smile?"
Ya Tuhan. Aku dah senyum macam kambing dah ni.
"You ni robot"
"You ni nonsense"
.  .  .  .
An amazing guy asked me:
"Are you happy to see me here?"
"Very happy!"
"You know, I missed my bus,almost missed my flight,reached here and waited for an hour"
Kriuuk kriuuk *bunyi cengkerik*
"Really, are you happy to see me?"
Kriuuk kriuuk *bunyi cengkerik*
I guess my physical expression failed me, since my face didn't exactly portrayed how mesmerized I was by this guy. Really, where did you came from?
Syurga?

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That weekend was supposed to be all about sending my good friend to Umrah. My expectations only varied from Doa Selamat, hugs and kisses perhaps with teary eyes in the airport, a weekend which will end with a date and smile from my champ on Sunday.
Oh dengan dinner yang mengorbankan semua binatang laut. Cukup perfect.
But He has planned even a more perfect weekend for me.
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Firstly: 
So the surprises started on Friday,early morning.
Okay 11am tak berapa pagi sangat dah si burung hantu
We planned to have our brunch, so off I went with my usual kelam kabut that when I reached the main door, I realized my cellphone was not with me.
Reversed my way back up, and there he was. Sitting quietly with a smile.
Time ni otak tengah confuse samada sedang berhalusinasi.
"Hi. Hehehehehehehe"
".....Tipu betul...Emm,kejap I ambik my handphone". Run my arse way upstairs, still in awe.
Right. Was that my man who just flew across the sea? For me? 
.  .  .  .
Secondly:
We had a huge seafood dinner at the TopSpot, with a ridiculously cheap price for 10 pax. My stomach was so happy I didn't care if my allergies will give me a swollen face with a crab mustache.
Begitu banyak binatang laut dikorbankan
Continued with supper at a cosy cafe nearby. The interior felt so homey with those super comfy couches. Well you couldn't really blame me for falling asleep macam lembu.
Until,
"Haapppyy Birthdayyyy to yooouuuu!!!"
I opened my eyes to smiling faces that came with a chocolate brownies and lighted candles.



Kek dah masuk perut pun masih tak percaya yang ini bukanlah mimpi semata.

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Thirdly:
On our way back from my surprise party, my good friend spilled a secret. *she's hopeless in this*
"Save your excitement. You have one more surprise left"
Biar benar. Kau siap pecah rahsia takbleh blah  -.-
Reached destination, he ran to get "something" and gave me a Mydin plastic bag with Vern's shoebox stamped RM39.90.
"Try lah if muat dengan size you"
I swear my heart was beating fast, excited to try my new shoe. I was hoping it was not a pair of 5 inch heels.

But I found this instead,
This is my present. A "shoe". Was I surprised?
Hell yes!
Ku kira parameter mulut yang ternganga sama sebesar buku lima.

"I figured you need this, as a friend whenever you're alone"
Kriuuk kriuuk *bunyi cengkerik*
"At least you could BBM your friend, or me, since you always have your lunch alone"
Kriuuk kriuuk *bunyi cengkerik*
"I bought this for almost a month. Can barely wait to see how big your smiles are. Suka tak?"
Kriuuk kriuuk *bunyi cengkerik*
".............Suka"

My expression failed me big time. Deep down I was trying to digest which part of me that deserve such appreciations. Sorry love,the serendipity is indescribable. I was beyond happy.

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Forthly:
The cakes, enough to last me for the next three years celebrations.

Champ

Office
 .  .  .
Fifthly:
A very thoughtful wishes from my childhood girlfriend, reminding me of how blessed I am to have her. Aawww,cita cita nak jadi Bumi dah tercapai.


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Gratitude:

DSZ: We may not be sisters by blood, but we are sisters by heart. Thank you for the efforts, from getting my arse on the plane right to the preparation of celebration. It was the best I ever had. Having you both is a blessing. 

Nat: The person who never fail to inspire me to become a better person, lighting up the gloomy days. What would I do without you sunshine? 

Champ: The reason of my reasons. Of everything,you still remain as the perfect gift of all. 

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Well the only thing I need now is to pinch my face and a reminder of how old I am today. Seriously, I'm 24? Shoot.


* Excuse my mushy post. Well I know Sher must be puking somewhere.

Saturday, April 16, 2011

Quitting Heart

Miracle happens when we least expect it.

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News Straits Time: 15th April 2011


BUTTERWORTH (Penang) - ONE 65-year-old man came back to life two-and-a-half hours after doctors at a Penang hospital pronounced him dead.

The rare phenomenon known as the Lazarus Syndrome has become the talk of the town. Upon learning of the self-employed man's death, his family began making funeral arrangements and had even put up a canopy in front of his house on Jalan Tok Elong, Tanah Liat in Bukit Mertajam.

His wife and his 26-year-old son, who were on their way to the district police station to lodge a report, were stunned when a doctor called to inform them that the man was alive.

Relating the incident, the man's son, known only as Mr Wei, said he had rushed his father to hospital at about 11am on Thursday when he stopped breathing at their home.

'The doctors performed cardiac pulmonary resuscitation and pronounced him dead an hour later. We then left for the police station when we received a call from a doctor at about 1.30pm,' he said. 

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As explained in Wikipedia:

Lazarus syndrome is the spontaneous return of circulation after failed attempts at resuscitation (more known as CPR). Its occurrence has been noted in medical literature at least 25 times since 1982. Occurrences of the syndrome are rare and the causes are not well understood. One theory for the phenomenon is that a chief factor (though not the only one) is the buildup of pressure in the chest as a result of cardiopulmonary resuscitation (CPR). The relaxation of pressure after resuscitation efforts have ended is thought to allow the heart to expand, triggering the heart's electrical impulses and restarting the heartbeat. 

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Noted that it is a very very rare case. For the grieve to be replaced with such miracle, I would trade everything that I own.

Friday, April 15, 2011

TGIF

Reasons why we love Friday:

1) Shorter working hours
2) Wider smiles with jumpy feet
3) Shorter working hours. Again. Major boost mind you.
4) Late midnight bedtime.


Paling penting:
Sempat beli kepok lekor yang sedap sebelum disebat budak sekolah

Sunday, April 3, 2011

Tuesday.

I was never really attached to any days of the week, except Friday and weekends of course.

Until that particular Tuesday.

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How do you justify sincerity?

I chose sacrifices. Because a man would not have gone beyond his will if it's not for the matter of heart.

I chose acts. Simply because it doesn't need the assistance of pretty words.

He, of whom is a friend, a champ and my significant.

Have I told you enough that your existence is an unexpected gift? He'll answer me with a smile. Clearly because he doesn't know of the life he had changed.




Zuhaili Rani,
I was just rewarding a man who deserves it. A sincere token of which I hope will accompany you in your new journey and dreams.

Happy 23rd Champ. 

And that doesn't mean I will let you win in our game next time ;)


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"You tak payah susah susah. Kita celebrate makan burger nigger je pun takpa"

Seriously, mana ada orang cucuk lilin atas daging lembu Paksu. Haha.



* An exception for personal use. Since he refused to accept what a blessing he has been.

Friday, April 1, 2011

Surat Pelajar Kepada PM : Datin Seri Rosmah Mansur


Dated in March 2011.

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Assalamualaikum Datin Seri. Saya, Muhammad Muizzuddin bin Zaini. InsyaALLAH, andai diizinkanNya, Julai nanti genaplah usia saya 19 tahun. 

Saya perkenalkan diri, sebagai remaja yang ingin tahu. Apa jua medium yang termampu saya pergunakan, saya usahakan sebaiknya agar saya dapat mengikuti perkembangan semasa, khususnya berkenaan negara Malaysia yang tercinta ini. 

Iya, Datin Seri. Umur saya, sangat muda. Kedudukan saya, jauh benarlah kiranya dibandingkan dengan Datin Seri. Namun, saya yakin dan percaya, andai umurlah yang menjadi penentu kelayakan seseorang untuk bersuara, tidaklah layak sama sekali untuk suami Datin Seri memegang amanah pentadbiran negara sekarang, kerana di luar sana terdapat ramai yang lebih tua usianya!

Tegas saya, saya adalah remaja yang memerhati. Saya tidak mahu, sekadar menjadi manusia yang kerjanya memuaskan tembolok sendiri. Tidak juga hanya terpaku di bilik darjah, ‘menelan’ buku teks sekolah. Saya percaya, erti hidup pada memberi! 

Datin Seri Rosmah Mansur yang saya hormati, 

Saya pohon jutaan kemaafan, andai surat kecil ini menyinggung Datin Seri. Saya tidak berniat untuk menyakiti hati Datin Seri, jauh sekali memburuk-burukkan. Surat kecil ini, hanyalah usaha kerdil saya, menyampaikan isi hati. Ia hanyalah suara hati dan pandangan seorang anak muda.

KASIH SAYANG KEPADA RAKYAT

Datin Seri,

Pernah suatu pagi, saya dibawa ibu untuk menziarahi jenazah anak tunggal seorang jiran kami. Kanak-kanak kecil itu, baru berusia 6 tahun. Khairani namanya. Runtun rasa di hati, sebaik melihat keadaan rumah tempat tinggalnya kanak-kanak itu bersama ibunya. Saya cuba membayangkan, bagaimanalah andainya hujan lebat menimpa bumbung rumah itu. Atapnya berlubang-lubang, hinggakan saya fikir memadai dengan cahaya matahari yang ‘mencuri’ masuk melaluinya untuk menyinari ruang dalam rumah daif itu. Saya terpaksa melangkah berhati-hati, kerana lantainya berkeriut dan goyah sekali. 

Hadir insaf dan syukur di dalam hati saya, bahawa betapa saya memiliki hidup yang jauh lebih baik dan selesa berbanding ramai lagi rakyat kebanyakan. 

Di sekolah, saya punyai rakan-rakan yang sulit sekali melangsaikan yuran bulanan asrama. Bukan culas, bukan malas, tetapi kesempitan hidup menyukarkan mereka. Adik-beradik ramai yang masih bersekolah, ditambah taraf hidup dan kos keperluan yang kian meningkat dari sehari ke sehari, semuanya membebankan! 

Datin Seri, 

Sungguh saya tidak mampu mengelakkan rasa kecewa, apabila mengetahui yang Datin Seri bermalam di sebuah hotel di Dubai dengan kos melebihi RM100, 000 semalaman. Sehingga ke hari ini, saya masih teringatkan rumah daif adik Khairani, juga nasib ramai lagi yang saya temui sepanjang umur ini. Saya tahu, betapa besarnya urusan Datin Seri, juga kedudukan Datin Seri. Mungkin memang Datin Seri berhak, tetapi, apakah Datin Seri langsung tidak teringatkan kami, rakyat yang kesusahan? Apakah Datin Seri langsung tidak terfikirkan nasib ratusan, ribuan lagi rakyat yang tidak bernasib baik? 

Apakah tiada langsung rasa bersalah di hati Datin Seri? Rasa bersalah kerana tinggal hanya untuk semalaman tetapi dengan kos yang boleh menyamai lebih kurang pendapatan selama 66 bulan bagi 40 peratus rakyat Malaysia! 40 peratus inilah rakyat yang pendapatan bulanan bagi setiap keluarga adalah lebih rendah daripada RM1500 sebulan. Bahkan setiap 3 daripada 4 keluarga ini, adalah sebangsa dengan Datin Seri, bangsa MELAYU! 

Atau apakah Datin Seri tidur dengan lena malam itu?

Hingga hari ini, sudah bertahun saya tidak ke restoran Pizza Hut, McDonald dan seumpamanya. Kerana cukup dengan hanya melihat dari jauh, hadir rasa pilu mengenangkan saudara-saudara seagama, anak-anak muda seusia saya atau kanak-kanak, wanita dan orang tua yang dibunuh kejam di Palestin oleh rejim zalim Israel hasil sumbangan restoran-restoran ini. 

a dipanggil, kasih sayang Datin Seri. Maafkan saya, tetapi saya terpaksa bertanya, apakah tiada langsung walau secebis pun rasa kasihan kepada rakyat Malaysia yang hidup serba kesusahan? Rakyat yang terpaksa melupakan impian dan keinginan kerana kesempitan hidup, namun terpaksa pula menanggung kos penginapan Datin Seri dan rombongan di luar negara untuk hanya semalaman!? Bayangkan pula kos penerbangan untuk keseluruhan rombongan selain daripada penginapan! 

Peningkatan kos sara hidup waktu ini, sangatlah membebankan. Suami Datin Seri berterusan meminta seluruh rakyat berjimat, sedangkan isterinya? Hasil tindakan kerajaan pimpinan suami Datin Seri, mengurangkan subsidi untuk rakyat terbanyak sedangkan untuk para taukeh-taukeh besar dikekalkan, juga ‘penyelarasan-penyelarasan’ harga, teramatlah menyulitkan kami semua. 

Sungguh Datin Seri, kami sangat terbeban meskipun harga petrol dinaikkan walau beberapa sen. Ia akan mempengaruhi seluruh kehidupan kami. Harga makanan, pakaian, kos pengangkutan dan semuanya akan semakin menyulitkan kami. Saban hari, saya melihat ibu mengeluh kerana gajinya sukar sekali untuk disimpan, ia sekadar mencukupi untuk setiap bulan. 

Kami rakyat tidak meminta Datin Seri turut menaiki kereta biasa atau tinggal di rumah biasa seperti kami. Hanya yang kami rakyat pinta, supaya Datin Seri dan suami menyelami hakikat kesukaran yang terpaksa kami tempuhi. 

Malangnya, tindakan Datin Seri berbelanja mewah begini adalah sama sekali tidak menggambarkan Datin Seri dan suami bersama-sama kami. Sungguh, ini amat mengecewakan saya. Sukar sekali untuk saya mewajarkannya. Maafkan saya Datin Seri, sungguh ia tidak dapat saya terima. 

Isu IFF dan ISLAM

Tiadalah yang lebih mengecewakan dan membangkitkan kemarahan, melainkan ketika melihat Datin Seri dan suami di Festival Fesyen Islam Monaco. Bagaimana tidak, pakaian yang diperagakan langsung tidak menggambarkan Islam! Langsung tidak menutup aurat, menampakkan bahagian-bahagian yang sepatutnya sulit dan yang paling dahsyatnya, nama RasuluLlah SAW yang mulia tertera pada pakaian yang tidak menutup aurat! 

Apakah Datin Seri tidak menyedari, bagaimana kemarahan yang telah Datin Seri cetuskan? Nama RasuluLlah SAW yang mulia dihina sebegitu rupa! Namanya cukup mulia, hinggakan apabila disebut namanya, dikira manusia yang paling kikir sekiranya tidak dipanjangkan nama itu dengan selawat ke atasnya. Tiba-tiba, nama itu dihina sebegitu rupa! Bahkan, Datin Seri yang menghadapi teguran, kritikan, kecaman dan tunjuk rasa langsung tidak memohon maaf. Langsung tidak! 

Sedangkan para Ulama’ masih berbahas, bagaimana cara paling baik untuk mengagungkan Manusia Mulia ini, tiba-tiba Datin Seri kelihatan meredhai perbuatan yang jelas MENGHINA Baginda Nabi SAW! 

Sebenarnya, Datin Seri sudah dari awal menunjukkan kecekalan Datin Seri melanggar syariat Allah. Datin Seri tidak menutup aurat, bersentuhan, berlaga pipi dan berpelukan dengan lelaki bukan mahram yang disepakati sekalian Ulama’ sebagai perbuatan yang HARAM!

Menyentuh anjing atau khinzir, hukumnya juga Haram. Namun, hilang kotornya dengan perbuatan menyamak. Malangnya, tiada apa yang mampu ‘membersihkan’ haram dan kotornya nya menyentuh lelaki ajnabi kecuali API NERAKA! 

Lalu, dengan semua perlakuan Datin Seri, apakah mungkin Datin Seri fikir kami rakyat akan menerima dakwaan Yang Amat Berhormat Perdana Menteri bahawa kerajaan pimpinannya berusaha keras berjuang demi Islam dan bangsa. Sedangkan isterinya sendiri, tidak memelihara Akhlak dan Syariat Islam, juga adab-adab kesantunan Melayu malahan! 

RAKYAT MENGIKUTI PEMIMPIN MEREKA

Kata ahli hikmah, “Agama manusia itu, di atas Pemimpin mereka”. Tinggi sahsiahnya, baik akhlaknya, ikhlas hatinya, patuh dan taat kepada Allah, maka begitulah jua rakyatnya. Rakyat akan terpengaruh dengan ketua mereka. 

Malaysia hari ini, dalam keadaan yang benar-benar dahsyat bagi saya. Setiap masa perlu di dalam keadaan berjaga-jaga, kerana penjenayah menunggu kita alpa. Gerun saya melihatkan kanak-kanak yang bermain sendirian di halaman rumah, bimbang kalau-kalau ada manusia busuk hati yang berniat jahat kerana jenayah hari ini langsung tidak mengenal beza usia! 

Budaya Hedonisme melampau. Nafsu ‘disembah’ sebagai Tuhan. Remaja Melayu Muslim tidak segan silu memakai pakaian yang jauh menyimpang daripada Islam dan adab Melayu. Tidak kekok mengogok arak di pesta-pesta jamuan nafsu. Saban hari ada sahaja kes bunuh bayi lewat pergaulan tanpa batas! Hari ini, remaja mati dengan sia-sia. Samada mati dalam ketagihan najis dadah, atau kemalangan dalam perlumbaan haram! 

Bahkan seribu satu lagi, penyakit-penyakit sosial yang sedang membarah, membusuk di dalam negara tercinta! 

Bukanlah saya menuding jari kepada Datin Seri dan suami, saya akui malahan, bahawa Datin Seri kelihatan cuba berusaha sedikit sebanyak bagi menangani masalah-masalah ini. Namun, hakikatnya, keadaan rakyat sesuai dengan keadaan pemimpinnya! 

Manusia yang jelas disabitkan kesalahan rasuah, diangkat menjadi pemimpin! Manakala pemimpin lain yang mengkritik tindakan ini, di arah supaya tutup mulut dan diambil tindakan! Apa sudah jadi pada negara!? Sedangkan Nabi SAW bersabda, “Apabila amanah diberikan kepada BUKAN ahlinya, maka tunggulah KEHANCURAN!” 

Pemimpin negara tidak memelihara adab pergaulan Islam, tidak memelihara batas aurat, berbelanja boros tanpa timbang rasa kepada rakyat, justeru, bagaimana mungkin kita mengharapkan yang baik-baik daripada rakyat? 

Saya gerun melihat perkembangan ini, Datin Seri. Hari ini, kita mengeluh kerana ramainya anak-anak luar nikah yang didaftarkan. Bayangkanlah, apa yang mungkin kita keluhkan 5 atau 10 tahun akan datang! 

Antara sifat agama kita, INQILABIYYAH Datin Seri. Ertinya, adil dan zalim mustahil begerak seiring. Kebenaran dan kebatilan sama sekali tidak akan bercampur. Syariat Islam dan yang bercanggah dengannya, pasti tidak akan ditemui titik temu antara keduanya. Justeru, Datin Seri berusahalah sehebat manapun untuk memperbaiki masalah sosial, gejala buang bayi dan sebagainya, selagi suami dan kerajaan Datin Seri terus mengesampingkan hukum Allah, dasar Allah, syariat Allah, maka Datin Seri tidak akan BERJAYA! Berani saya kata! 

Bagaimana tidak? Datin Seri berusaha mengelakkan masalah bunuh bayi yang kita semua maklum ia bermula daripada pergaulan bebas, sedangkan hub hiburan malam, lesen judi dan konsert-konsert mega sebenarnya adalah penyumbang besar kepada masalah ini! Kerajaan pimpinan suami Datin Seri, umpama membina dan meruntuhkannya semula. Bina dan runtuh, kemudian bina dan runtuhkan lagi. Itulah kitarannya. 

KUASADatin
Seri ke luar negara untuk bertemu pemimpin negara luar, pernah juga Datin Seri menyambut kehadiran Perdana Menteri luar negara ke Malaysia, dana RM111 juta untuk PERMATA, pertemuan First Lady dan liputan-liputan meluas setiap aktiviti Datin Seri di media dalam dan luar negara, itu bagi saya menunjukkan yang Datin Seri seolah-olah punya kuasa di dalam pentadbiran negara. 

Justeru, sebagai anak muda yang penuh persoalan di minda, saya bertanya dengan baik, bagaimana ini semua berlaku? Sedangkan, kami rakyat tidak pernah melantik Datin Seri sebagai pemimpin negara. Suami Datin Seri yang memimpin kerajaan yang telah dipilih rakyat melalui proses Pilihan Raya! Atau apakah dengan hanya menjadi isteri kepadanya, menjadikan Datin Seri turut berkuasa? 

Datin Seri pasti tahu, berkenaan kebangkitan rakyat yang menyemarak di Timur Tengah. Kerajaan yang tidak bertimbang rasa diterjah dan dihalau rakyat! Antara isunya ialah bagaimana berkuasa dan kaya rayanya isteri kepada pemimpin-pemimpin yang telah tumbang itu. 

Saya cintakan negara saya. Tidak sanggup saya melihat negara porak peranda, namun, kiranya Datin Seri berterusan mengikut jejak langkah isteri-isteri pemimpin yang tumbang itu, maka mungkin Datin Seri dan suami boleh menerima nasib yang sama. Kami rakyat semakin tidak tertanggung lagi dengan tekanan-tekanan kewangan dan keperluan hidup sekarang! 

Datin Seri, 

Surat ini bukanlah ancaman, bukan juga ugutan. Ia sekadar luahan rasa, nasihat dan pandangan yang cuba seorang anak muda sampaikan. Ingin benar saya ingatkan, kedudukan yang Datin Seri nikmati hari ini, adalah kerana rakyat memilih suami Datin Seri. Kuasa di tangan kami, untuk menentukan jatuh dan bangunnya Datin Seri dan suami. Dan sebenarnya, kami rakyat hanyalah ‘jalan’ bagi Allah untuk mengatur ketentuan ini, Allah jualah yang meletakkan kekuasaan kepada sesiapa yang dikehendakinya. 

Justeru, berbaiklah dengan kami. Patuhilah suruhan Allah. Kami tidak pinta lebih, sekadar bertimbang-rasa untuk kami. 

Datin Seri yang dihormati, 

Surat ini mungkin sampai ke tangan Datin Seri. Mungkin sampai sendiri, atau terhenti di tangan pembantu-pembantu Datin Seri atau tidak mampu hampir sama sekali. Kiranya ia selamat sampai ke tangan Datin Seri, saya pohon maaf, kalaulah surat kecil saya ini mengguris rasa Datin Seri. Maafkan saya, kalau ia kerana kesilapan-kesilapan bahasa dan cara penulisan. Namun, andainya Datin Seri terasa hati kerana menerima teguran, tidak akan saya pohon maaf untuk itu! Teguran ini adalah benar, justeru tiada apa yang perlu saya risaukan dengan kebenaran. Ia pasti menang dan tertegak!